Monthly Archives: August 2013

  1. Some Days All You Need is a YOU SUCK Prompt

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    August 27, 2013 by Katia

    I have these two amazing blogfriends, Jen at My Skewed View and Kristi at Finding Ninee. Every Tuesday these two …
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  2. Should We Even Be Talking About Baby Weight Loss at 10 Weeks Postpartum?

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    August 26, 2013 by Katia

    My post is up on MamaPop today and it’s titled: Kris Jenner: Kim’s an Inspiration to Other Moms. Other Moms: …
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  3. Israel

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    August 23, 2013 by Katia

    I’m back! And I give you a double dose of me. If you’d like to hear me talk about boobs, …
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  4. Closest To Me

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    August 16, 2013 by Katia

    Hi friends. While I’m away on vacation I’ve been reposting some favourite pieces here. I don’t have a clever introduction …
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  5. Finding Nemo in Your Hamper Basket – Parenting Signs

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    August 15, 2013 by Katia

    I am away on vacation right now, but this is what awaits me when I come back. ************** Sign #26 …
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  6. 101 Ways (OK, Make it 6) To Incorporate the Word Poop Into a Conversation

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    August 14, 2013 by Katia

    This piece was written back in February. Not much has changed since, except the boys’ ages. Right now we are …
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  7. A Childhood Lesson From Twitter

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    August 13, 2013 by Katia

    Hi guys. Remember how I wasn’t here on Monday if you checked in with me? Still not here. I’m visiting …
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What makes a happy new year? 
This is my story, but I suspect, it might also be yours. 
Lately I haven't been writing much. Forget writing, I can't even produce an entertaining Facebook update. Why? Because selecting the right words requires an effort and I don't have any effs (for effort) left to give. First I stopped posting to my blog, then my blog's Facebook page and eventually my own Facebook profile. I'm making an effort but I find it draining. Who knew that posting funny updates on your profile is not so easy? 
Nothing dramatic is going on in my life. Work's been extra busy with some newly added responsibilities and stress, bedtimes are still long-ish and my sleep is still often interrupted, but it's not nearly as often as before. My "me time" is limited and starts late. The emotional energy I invest in my work, the nature of my sleep and the limited time I spend on myself leave me with little energy to spare. Any energy I have left and then some is invested in my kids.

My kids, whom you all know I adore and admire, are daring, often reckless and very young and inexperienced. Sometimes I'm surprised at the extent of their lack of caution and I'm always, always disproportionately worried. I know that because I'm unlike the other mothers around me. I come from a family of worriers and anxious people. My neural pathways always lead me to a dead end - literally. I catastrophize and imagine the worst outcome. For years I've been able to rationalize and talk myself out of useless, time consuming and energy wasting internal struggles with often imagined worrisome scenarios, but now that words are burdensome and my energy is dwindled, I can't. 
I'm entering this new year happier and more optimistic than I've been in awhile. Yesterday I went to see my doctor. After a lot of internal turmoil and thoughts about cancelling my appointment I came in and blurted out: I think I'm suffering from some form of anxiety. His very calm and matter of fact-ish reaction ("like everyone else in the 21st century") wasn't dismissive, but reassuring. Self care sometimes means looking deeper. 
I wish everyone a happy new year of good mental health. It's the basis for everything.
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