Monthly Archives: January 2014

  1. The Blogging Casualties

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    January 30, 2014 by Katia

    A funny thing happened on my way home from the grocery store. As I was approaching my house I lifted …
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  2. “Who Are You Wearing” Means Many Different Things In Mommyverse. None Of Them Red-Carpet-Related.

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    January 28, 2014 by Katia

    Imagine an army of moms in yoga pants, sweats and buns invading the red carpet and responding to a slightly …
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  3. 7-Year-Old Girl Sent Home From School for Having Wrong Hairstyle. My Frizz and I Go Into Hiding

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    January 27, 2014 by Katia

    Yesterday we celebrated Family Literacy Day here in Canada. Literacy is about the love of learning. This post I wrote …
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  4. Lookit! IAMTHEMILK is on Queen Latifah and Lefty Pop Talking Job Search Resolutions and Award Seasons!

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    January 17, 2014 by Katia

    Today I’m hanging out on the Queen’s website again. That’s what I like to call her. The Queen. Or simply …
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  5. Suck It, Pinterest

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    January 13, 2014 by Katia

    OR: (Not So) Fun Winter Activities For You and Your Toddler I am currently participating in a research I did not …
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  6. NASA Will Pay You 18K For 70 Days In Bed – In Related News: Who Wants To Watch My Kids?

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    January 9, 2014 by Katia

    I don’t need a Million Dollars. Just cough up 18K and we’re good. This post was written last fall for …
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  7. The Sleep Deprivation Ping Pong

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    January 6, 2014 by Katia

    A new parenting low.  I take momentary solace in my ability to detach myself from this insanity by conjuring up …
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Between 2014-2015:

BlogHer '13 Voices of the Year Community Keynote Honoree
Scary Mommy
The Epistolarians

Books:

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What makes a happy new year? 
This is my story, but I suspect, it might also be yours. 
Lately I haven't been writing much. Forget writing, I can't even produce an entertaining Facebook update. Why? Because selecting the right words requires an effort and I don't have any effs (for effort) left to give. First I stopped posting to my blog, then my blog's Facebook page and eventually my own Facebook profile. I'm making an effort but I find it draining. Who knew that posting funny updates on your profile is not so easy? 
Nothing dramatic is going on in my life. Work's been extra busy with some newly added responsibilities and stress, bedtimes are still long-ish and my sleep is still often interrupted, but it's not nearly as often as before. My "me time" is limited and starts late. The emotional energy I invest in my work, the nature of my sleep and the limited time I spend on myself leave me with little energy to spare. Any energy I have left and then some is invested in my kids.

My kids, whom you all know I adore and admire, are daring, often reckless and very young and inexperienced. Sometimes I'm surprised at the extent of their lack of caution and I'm always, always disproportionately worried. I know that because I'm unlike the other mothers around me. I come from a family of worriers and anxious people. My neural pathways always lead me to a dead end - literally. I catastrophize and imagine the worst outcome. For years I've been able to rationalize and talk myself out of useless, time consuming and energy wasting internal struggles with often imagined worrisome scenarios, but now that words are burdensome and my energy is dwindled, I can't. 
I'm entering this new year happier and more optimistic than I've been in awhile. Yesterday I went to see my doctor. After a lot of internal turmoil and thoughts about cancelling my appointment I came in and blurted out: I think I'm suffering from some form of anxiety. His very calm and matter of fact-ish reaction ("like everyone else in the 21st century") wasn't dismissive, but reassuring. Self care sometimes means looking deeper. 
I wish everyone a happy new year of good mental health. It's the basis for everything.
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